Confusion.

I remember that day. The day I gave up on you. I thought I didn't feel anything anymore, and you were just an old friend again. I stopped thinking about you all the time.

 Sure your smile still made me melt, but everyone sees that your smile brings spring flowers back to life, even in the dead winter. So that was nothing new. 

You are one of those people that can change someones whole day with just a simple hello. Your personality is one of the most unique I have ever encountered. And you are just a good friend. At least thats what I wanted to think. 

Turns out I was terribly confused. Apparently I just let things holding me back make me think I was over feeling like this for you. My friends knew it the whole time, even though I didn't.

 Completely blinded by certain situations I didn't realize you still make me so nervous that I sound like an awkward 7th grader around you.

I'm confused. Or am I? Now my brain just hurts and I don't know how to stop it. Thanks to you. 

You will probably never know the truth, but thats okay because just having you in my life is enough. Your incredible strength after all you've been through makes me want to be a better person everyday. And that's what friends do. Make each other better. So thank you for being my friend.

 Please don't ever stop being you. I love you. As a friend. Maybe.