We All Do.

Fear.

You can probably smell it on me. I don't care because you fear too. We all do. Having fears is all a part of being human. You can lie and say that you honestly don't have any, but by saying that, you have a fear of fears. You're afraid that people will find your weakness and somehow ruin every part of you. So you try your hardest to act like nothing scares you. To act like you're the man. But you're not. Sorry to disappoint.

Do you want to know what I'm afraid of?

I'm afraid of growing up. Sometimes being a kid is the answer to everything. Sometimes I want to travel to Neverland and become best friends with peter pan. I get angry at myself sometimes for always wishing I could grow up when I was younger because I thought teenagers were "so cool". The only cool thing about teen life is being able to drive. Drive away from everything that pushes you to the point of insanity. And it only gets worse from here. Can't I just skip growing up even more?

I'm afraid of losing my best friends. The people who LOVE to tease me, but also embrace me with LOVE when I feel like nothing. All I know is that I would be engulfed in darkness if I didn't have them in my life.

I'm afraid of talking to him. What if he didn't like my personality, or my weird little perks? I don't know if I could risk receiving a negative reaction from him. The butterflies in my stomach would be upset with me and turn into demons instead. What if he just thinks of me as that one girl he saw at his brothers wedding. The awkward one in the white dress with the mint vest. We say hi, but I wonder if he feels like he has to. Does he actually mean it when he smiles at me?

I'm afraid of not being good enough. For anyone.

I'm afraid of pushing too hard to the point of no return.

I'm afraid of losing another family member. My family is my rock. A shiny, beautiful rock that would turn me dull if it cracked.

I'm afraid of fears, just like you. The only difference between me and you is that I realize and accept that I'm afraid. When are you going to stop this "tough guy" act? Because if you don't, someone or something else will. So just confess now that you have fears. It's okay. We all do.